Things I miss

It's getting closer to my redeployment and I am so excited and a little nervous.  We are being told that because our lives have been a perpetual Ground Hog day for the last six months, life at home for our loved ones and friends have continued.    I feel confident that I won't go home and start making changes right away but there are some things that I miss.

One thing I miss is having a telephone that I can pick up and call my friends to just talk.  I miss having someone to REALLY talk to and who will listen.  I have found that I have been pushing my emotions aside so I won't feel anything because there is no one here I can talk to.  Some people have found that connection, I have not.

Another thing I miss is food in general.  I am so sick of fat, salt ladened food that is tasteless.  I can't believe the military wants me to be "Fit to Fight" yet I am forced to eat such crap.  I haven't lost any weight which is really annoying considering I go to the gym every day.  Being fit is 80% food, 20% exercise.

Alone time.  This is something else, I am NEVER alone and for a huge extrovert this is a big deal.  I can't stand being around people right now, there are so many.  Imagine you're at Disneyland and waiting for a ride everywhere you go and bumping into people left and right...even in your living space and do this for six months.  It becomes quite annoying.

I miss driving my car and just hearing the music and zoning into it. 

I miss my family.  I miss the simple things like Konner sneaking into my bed or Kodi just sitting to talk to me.  I miss sitting in the chair and snuggling with one on either side of me.  I miss being able to go with Tom and the boys to do something together as a family or just being in the house watching t.v. while the boys are outside playing.  I miss being able to cook a meal and sitting around the table talking about the day.

I miss clothes.  I've worn the same thing everyday for the last six months and I'm tired of wearing it.  I want to put on a sundress and sandles.

These are the things I miss and the closer I get the more I miss them.