Yesterday was probably the worst day being here, that I can remember.  Anything that could go wrong did and I was in tears most of the day...not from being sad but from being so angry.  The docs do not listen to the nursing staff nor do they include us in their plans for the patients and we get caught off guard.  Our docs on the day shift don't want to work, so they don't make decisions and are constantly deferring to someone else.  If one had made a decision the day before regarding my child, he probably wouldn't have extubated himself during a coughing spell!  They also had the nerve to ask if he was salivating so much and my response was "I told you that YESTERDAY and asked for some medication to help dry him out!" 

I had one doc yell at me for not checking my orders, yeah so I'll ask my patient to please not go into respiratory distress from his coughing spells because I didn't get the x-ray on the other patient.  I don't know, maybe the doc could have been a little more helpful and called x-ray himself...seeing I was pretty tied up with saving my patient?  Nope, he's only good at being a retarded ass.

Our enlisted leadership have spent much time coming up with new rules on the cleaning of the dorms.  We have contracted employees who are supposed to clean the dorms and if they don't show up then it becomes our responsibility...Thanks.  So on the day I have to do my bay orderly I guess I'm supposed to just leave my patient for three hours to come clean the dorm.

I am off today and I plan on hiding out in my room all alone and just taking care of me.  I need to because yesterday was so bad.  Hopefully tomorrow I'll have a different perspective.